Hammer-philia

The drama has quieted down in my life. But for the past 5 or 6 days I have been relentlessly addicted to checking the internet. I go thru blogs, thru myspacester, dating101, I go through email a billion times... I read ridiculous posts on Craig's List. I don't know what I'm looking for, if anything. I think I'm just biding my time. And I hate the compulsive behaviour. Yes, I do manage to get out of the house and do sutff, but I'm always later than I imagine I should be. Like today I have to go to the archives again, but that opens at 11a.m. It's now 10:15; I've woken up, talked to Hyde, and eaten breakfast. If I want to make it on time, i'd better hurry to the shower within 5 minutes. Yes, I will, after I write this.

I guess if i really do manage to spend 5 or 6 hours at the library today, I will not be as compulsive as usual on the internet. I could say I'm going thru a bit of a lull, but it's just that I'm not currently super-mega-obsessed with any one suitor.

Sing-man has been trying to get back into.... the picture. He's written an email and sent a text. I did make a "secret vow" to Hyde that I wouldn't be with him anymore... but he's not *that* bad, as long as I don't sleep with him. {Which, btw, he will try to do....}

yesterday I had lunch with SmallSpectacles, a perfectly nice professor about 7 years my senior. We met up somewhat randomly, and neither of us seemed to know exactly why. Was it a date? Was I going to make a specific request of him in terms of my work? Was it just to "see how it's all going" (his words)? In any event, we ended up talking a lot, about both of our work and projects, and he is very nice. He doesn't live in town, but I hope that I've begun to make a new friend.

The Wizard has been popping up all over the place, and it can never be good, at least not *all* good. Two days ago, he wrote Gidget an offensive email, chiding her for telling him that I missed him. I know, it happened over beer and like 5 days ago! What the hell! He was nice to her but made her appear all weak and me to appear all powerful-like. He cc'ed me on the email, but I couldn't receive it because he is forever blocked from my inbox. I was all annoyed at him, but didn't do anything about it. Then, he wrote me a very sweet text yesterday, who knows why? ? Saying that I have a "bright and loving future". At the library yesterday, I was told that he had been there too. Will the guy ever just leave me alone for a little bit!?!?

I also forgot to update about MGII-- he was a bit of a frat boy. I'm in no rush to see him again.

I have absolutely no money these days. I won't be getting paid again until the 2nd week of June and I only have $300 or so until then, which is including bills, etc.

For lack of anything more to say, and a ticking clock that tells me it's time to go, I leave you with my horoscope:
Zero in on business matters with eagerness and confidence. It's far better to accomplish your errands and work assignments early in the day as a Mercury-Jupiter 150-degree alignment arrives this evening.