Hammer-philia

Like today. I think I had a dream that I was in a play with a bunch of girls and we were singing, "I wish that I was Jessie's giiiiiirrrrl...." It was so fun, and it made me miss being a little girl, all playful, and with lower stakes, so much. Sometimes I feel so profoundly lonely.

I just woke up and the Wiz called me right away. He started talking in my ear, about some administrative thing or other, but I was in this deep weird mood, so I said, in my half-asleep voice, "Can I call you back in a bit?" I think that pissed him off.

Hyde summerized the Wizard perfectly last night: He fails or gets upset (turns into O.G.) when people don't meet him exactly where he is, at his needs. I have a bunch of papers to do, but it doesn't matter to him.

Grrrrr... I want a major adventure so badly sometimes. But I can't be alone in the winter... maybe April we'll break up.

Right?