Hammer-philia

yes, you read right.
I was thinking about something charming that the Narc said one of the few times I actually met him in person. It was me, Hyde, Wiz, and Narc. (You can read it here.
it was the day we went for burgers and a stroll around the village---4 privileged people, with nowhere in particular to be on a random Monday...)
Wiz is a big-time runner, and as you all know, Narc is into quick fixes and always searching for a new way to be "in" with the latest health kicks.
Wiz: "If you want to run, the body will adjust so quickly. You will lose weight. It is also quite easy to improve in a very short time."
Narc (all starry-eyed and intrigued): "That is so great! I really want to start."
Wiz: "All you need are a good pair of shoes."
Narc: I am going to stop by the Apple store today to get an ipod shuffle.

The moral? When he was really just looking for a way to begin running, he quickly went for the ipod shuffle (not a necessity for running) instead of just beginning his training immediately. It would take more inner discipline and Narc was looking for solutions outside himself, poor thing.

I feel that I do the same thing. What do I want? To clear the slate, to become more independent, to be able to make decisions more organically, to clear out the ghosts of the past so I can better pursue something pure in the future. What have I done? I have once again fallen into the arms of a boy, one who makes me uncomfortable, and one who does not know *enough* about female sexuality. I have gone out and bought myself an ipod shuffle!

That is what I was just thinking about on my run.

Another thing: Why do I have two ways to comment? Does anyone know how to wrest free of one of them? I can't even be monogamous on the goddamn blog. Please advise.

yet another thing: I just saw Arch and went to brunch with him. I feel we need to talk, but about what, I am not so sure. In the spirit of honesty (see, mystic?) i have said as much on an email to arch.

That's all from here.

Hammer