Hammer-philia

the glasses i'm wearing are missing an arm. it's hard to keep them on. i am in phoenix for my brother's engagement party-- it was quite a festivity, but i have been moody and uneasy the whole weekend. my parents threw a very very generous party, which would have been great, if i could have brought someone. like someone romantic. there is a vast hole in my life where someone should be. i am still attached to the wizard, and i have so much regret surrounding that situation. i feel that if only i could be freer about him, then i would be so much happier. but i keep saying too, he doesn't "fit in" with my scheme. anyway, the party was romantic and nice, and I wore a tiny black strapless dress with heels. everyone kapt asking if i had gotten taller. (it was annoying) I clear six feet in heels. so many of my parents' friends were there, they all had to give me a kiss on the cheek. how hard is it to find a polite and intelligent person these daya? i'm not so sure. anyway, off to yet another wedding event-- this time a shower for RedheadGirl. blah, boring, marketing, so much money dumped into these things.