Hammer-philia

I mean, some time since wizard threw a fit and decided that i was no good for him, yet again, yes it has. i don't think i'll ever be in a relationship where the other person trusts me. it's all about starting out honestly. and i did, but he does not trust. he will never trust.
the family is in alaska and boy, do i wish i were there instead of here. i wish so strongly. now i can really put the family first, they come first!
i am so nauseous.