Hammer-philia

Unfortunately I had written a long post, telling you all about me, and what I was doing. The most unfortunate thing was that I had written about my paper, which really needs to get done. It is now Sunday, just afternoon. I spent the evening with Hyde, my good friend, and we dyed our hair. She has dark hair and redid hers to make it redder, plus she wanted to add some bleached highlights in the front. Well, it all worked out fine for her. But for me, I made my hair blonder, and it turned a little too yellow. Oops! The Wizard came over after Hyde left, and he nervously asked whether it would be permanent. I told him it would just last a week, even though that's not true. TheWizard and I just had a nice breakfast at my place; I made yogurt with fruit and eggs and baguette and juice and coffee. All was pleasant. He even made some of my steak right afterward. (I must buy a new sponge for the dishes.)

I woke up with an uneasy feeling today. Was missing D immensely. D was my boyfriend/soulmate for a long time. I glimpsed some photos of him last night, and remembered what good times we once had before his best friend Bonecrusher moved to town. Bone kind of tore my connection with D asunder. Bone took D away from me at nights; I love Bone too, but it was hard being a threesome together. Really hard. Plus, we were only a threesome some of the time. Yup, most of the time the two of them needed "dude time" to hang out, drink beer, and play darts. That left me in the dust. At least I started yoga as a result. All this to say that D hurt me pretty bad, and I'm still not over it. Funny how for so long he was saying how I hurt him, but I think that he hurt me first, and therefore I had to move on to find more attention. We haven't really spoken or been together in many months, but even yesterday he said that he "wanted a future" with me. Yowch!

This is an entry about boys. They wont' all be this way.