Hammer-philia

The sun is setting here in Arizona soon, and on my entire vacation (not to mention warm weather for the next umpteen months). As usual, being here has confirmed that my life is divided in two: one part Eastern, adventurous, rushing, growing forward.... one part warmth, conservative, sleep early in the night, wake up on time, etc etc.

Well: I suppose that is only natural. There is a bit of a gap between my parents and I. One easily mended, but only if I feel totally comfortable being myself around them. (And I don't, i guess.) Sometimes I relate so well to the gay people who feel they need to "come out" to everyone they know, especailly their parents. It's time I "came out" to my mom and dad, who are so loving, so wonderful, so nurturing yet tough.... But I don't think they are all accepting, and I think that they would be let down by some parts of my life. (or they already are, by my whole life, maybe).

Enough of that tip: I've spent the whole time here it seems either running around the golf course or lying outside in my bathing suit. And at night i watch TV for about 2 seconds before I fall asleep. WHat A LIFE! But I have completely avoided my responsibilities: 2 snaggltooth papers, 1 paper from last spring.... AGGGGH! And now it's about time for classes yet again. Geez, have I wasted my time? Geez!

BTW I wish I had not just read TheEx's blog about watching TV over at some girl's house. I wish I could cut him off completely for now anyway. It seems a little impossible though. We were so deep into each other, yet made each other so very unhappy for so long. Anyway, i wouldn't trade in my current love interest for anything. It's just hard when you miss someone....

I'm slightly dreading going back to my apartment, since my new roommate Bitchina will have 2 friends over for the next week. When I get there, I will have all of 10 Sq Ft to my name. Not to mention sharing my bathroom with 3 others. This isn't so cool....